Moments I cherish the most...

September: Shabach to my Lord my God

2010-09-23T11:48:00.000+08:00

September: My 7 Ways of Praise

2010-09-23T09:48:00.001+08:00

September: My Assurance is to You.

2010-09-23T09:45:00.002+08:00

I just wanted you know,

Even though sometimes we might feel that we're far apart from each other.

But the feelings that I have inside has never change me into another person.

I still keep the feelings and I let the love that I have for you to remain burning.

Never ever doubt our love for its wonderful works in us.

Sometimes you just gotta learn how to feel its tangible presence.

I Love You.

Always...

September: The Things to Share and Say

2010-09-21T14:10:00.002+08:00

Please take off your bible and read Psalms 39:7.

Let it guide you through when you feel weary or down.

September: 25 minutes too late.

2010-09-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

I made a last minute decision...
I was rushing, rushing there just to see you...
It was raining heavily and the road was kinda blur...
And it doesn't stop me even a bit...
But when I reach there, I try to look around if I see you..
It was too late...
You're already gone.
I was 25 minutes late...

Although I was late...
I know I still have hearts to make the last step to go and find you...
Because I don't see anybody else there for but me and 2 other people...
Well, that's how life is...

September: I miss...

2010-09-09T14:01:00.002+08:00

I miss creating the work of art.

Gonna start another work of art soon...

wait for it...

September: Photoshop

2010-09-07T18:13:00.001+08:00

September: My Apple Crumble

2010-09-07T01:33:00.003+08:00

Went to 4 seasons last Thursday for Jo Hanna's farewell (not exactly a party)
I ordered apple crumble for myself...
Yum Yum ! I miss the taste of it already !!!

September: FireFly for lunch

2010-09-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

I had this lunch meeting with the youth leaders at Fire Fly Grill & Bar restaurant last week.
Ordered this so called beef rice.
The picture that they show on the menu seems very mouth watery but it didn't really turn out the same size as it was in the picture.
It look so huge in the picture but look at the actual thing!
So disappointed.
But to be honest it taste good.
=)

September: Somebody's me

2010-09-03T12:29:00.000+08:00

September: Moments

2010-09-03T11:36:00.004+08:00

September: Psalms 62:1-2

2010-09-03T10:42:00.002+08:00

September: Less you know.

2010-09-03T10:19:00.003+08:00

No body knows I've got the magic in me.

It's all about the magic, magic, magic in me.

September: I find that moment...

2010-09-01T14:01:00.002+08:00

And just like that, here comes September.

August has been a very great and memorable month for me.

So many fun and awesome thing happened although there is also some that aren't pleasant to me.

But hey, you gotta learn from it right?!

Yesterday was our national day.

Didn't do anything much.

Went out watch 'Grown Ups' with a very funny friend.

That movie got me laughing many times.

And then went to meet another bunch of crazy friends.

Had our joking session and just teasing one another.

There was that moment.

Just that very moment when you just wanna let the time stop and stay.

August: Why can't this feeling fade away.

2010-08-30T11:57:00.002+08:00

I was standing by the beach that very evening.
Enjoying the wind while it blows softly on my face.
All my mind could think about that time was you...

I told myself I wanna let it pass my by.
But my heart just won't let me...
You haunt me during the day and you haunt me during the night.
And no matter how I try to fight it, the feeling that I have inside me just won't die...

Every time when I see you, I couldn't get my eyes off of you...
No matter where you are, in front, at the back or at the side...
My eyes will still find you.

I wanna stop doing that too.
But I just don't know how...
Well, slowly it will fade away...

August: I wish...

2010-08-28T12:52:00.002+08:00

Life is fair.

Fair enough to make your own decision...

There is 24 hours a day and 7 days in a week.

Telling me that you've got no time is just an excuse...

Living in a lie is only gonna bring you trouble.

Eventually everything that you have plan is only gonna die...

Faking a smile just to show people that you're okay.

But trying too hard to pretend everything is okay just ain't gonna work on me...

Thanks for telling me you trust me.

At the end it is all just a lie...

Reading this blog is just another waste of time.

Then why are you still reading it till the end of this time?

August: What am I thinking?

2010-08-28T12:46:00.001+08:00

Things just isn't gonna be the same anymore.

So what am I suppose to do now?

August: Choosing my path

2010-08-28T10:50:00.001+08:00

August: I see you...

2010-08-28T09:59:00.002+08:00

Life excites me each time I see you from afar...

Even though I know things wouldn't be the same for both of us...

Well at least I still keep the remaining of the memories inside my heart...

You have brought plenty of joy into my life while we were together...

And the joy still remains even when the day you left...

I know it is hard for you and I to share another words together...

But deep down in my heart I still feel that both of us are still talking to each other...

Your eyes,

The shine like a star from up above in the very dark night...

Your smile,

It brings joy to everyone that is around you...

Your love,

It warms people every time you are around...

Yes and yes I know I could've done more to make you stay...

But I do know that this is fate...

That you and I must be apart...

In order for you and I to grow stronger everyday...

Once again,

Thank you so much for everything that you've bring into my life...

There is nothing that you did to me are wasted...

Good to see you grow so much...

And I thank God too for giving such a privilege to get to know such a great friend like "you"

August: Rise & Fall

2010-08-28T09:56:00.001+08:00

August: Rain Rain Go Away. Come again another day...

2010-08-20T15:06:00.003+08:00

It's been pouring this few days.

Well, I actually don't mind about the rain.

But the worse part is when the rain came when my car is still shining bright white.

The rain always come at the bad time.

EVERY TIME!

Especially right after I wash my car or even after I sent my car to the car wash.

This is a sign that I have to pray harder before I sent my car to wash.

Sigh ~~!!

August: A letter from Angela

2010-08-19T22:02:00.004+08:00

It has been a long long while since I last heard from my sweet lil sis Angela. I was shocked when I saw an envelope on my table and was wondering what that was. And then I saw my name and then just check see where did it come from. Surprisingly it was from Angela. Well, thanks a lot Angie if you ever see this! It's good to know that you've doing good there in Australia. I love the post card that she had for me. And check the mini Pirate on the left ! That's a bookmark. Cool aye? I'm gonna use it for my bible purpose. Well, I will write for you too Angie ! Wait for my super slow snail mail. LOL ~ You made my day Angie ! Thanks!

August: Forgiveness

2010-08-19T09:23:00.003+08:00

I now know understand the true meaning of forgiveness.

I made a mistake one time and that mistake almost got me into a huge trouble.

But God was being so merciful towards me.

He taught a huge lessons in life.

And the lesson that I learnt was respect, time management & obedient towards God.

After I've gone through such a tough time and I knowing that what I did was being forgiven,

I must learn through this lesson and not to repeat it again.

All thanks to be given to God for being around me and bless me.

Thank You God !

August: Searching

2010-08-18T11:23:00.002+08:00

I'm searching a song for my heart.

August: The good old time.

2010-08-18T11:11:00.001+08:00

You're one of the person who knows my strong points as well as my weak points.

Thanks for guiding me and teaching all these while.

I appreciate it.

You'll always be the person I respect the most.

August: Take me back

2010-08-18T11:08:00.002+08:00

I wish I could just turn back time. Just bring me back to the moment where I can redo all the things that I done wrong in the past and re write my history. I can't bear to see myself going through life through this way... I have to make a change.

August: Fat

2010-08-18T10:26:00.002+08:00

Woo Hoo !

I finally get good compliments from the people around me.

Telling me that I gain weight.

Even my grandma and my mom said so.

I know I am weird.

Why do you care anyway?

August: Searching for Mi Amor

2010-08-17T23:40:00.002+08:00

There are so many pretty girls I see around me.
But chasing each one of them could be such a waste of time.
Well, it ain't easy to search for the right person for myself without God's help.
And I don't think I will make the decision myself in choosing the right person.
Imma let God do His work in me.
And I know He has someone special for me out there.

August: I've got awesome friends

2010-08-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

You guys are AWESOME !!!!!

August: Got this from my buddy's facebook picture tag.

2010-08-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

This picture reminds me a lot of the fun that I had with my buddies in Labuan.
Miss them a lot already !

August: Journal

2010-08-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

Well, I should probably start writing more of my own personal journal now. Reason being are mainly because of the changes in life. I found that my life has been really dramatic recently. It is not about me obviously. I'm not that freaking dramatic at all. But it's just I feel like doing it. Maybe it's because the people around me has been acting pretty weird recently? I don't know... But I won't be writing my journal here. So yeah... I guess that's about it. Go make yourself useful instead of reading this post. Thanks for dropping by anyway.

August: The biggest question I shall give to myself

2010-08-17T14:55:00.003+08:00

I am a little bit confuse right now.

Confuse between choosing the right path and answer for myself.

Should I choose to leave or I rather just stay put at where I am.

It could also come in two different answer and meaning to each one of it.

Only I can make the decision myself.

And of course I will pray about.

Well, I guess I'll just pray about it.

May God be with me as I make this decision.

August: My Artist of The Month

2010-08-17T14:18:00.003+08:00

August: It's all about FLUFFY!

2010-08-13T10:49:00.002+08:00

It's so fluffy I'm gonna die...
IT'S SO FLUFFY !

HAHA!!

It's the month of August !
A new kick start for something new !
Gonna spend more time with My Fluffy !
=)

I know you're reading this ! Don't deny it !
Smile when you do !!

August: Life.

2010-08-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it's just hard to find a real shoulder to lean on.
Especially when you're down and when everyone you can depend on are busy with their own stuff.

God, you know what to do. Steer the steering wheel of my life for me! You be the captain of my ship.

I'm not gonna let myself down because I know You're with me.
Stir up my hearts Lord.
You're my guidance, my light & my path.
Show me how to start my life whole over again.

I'll stick with you always.

August: It's all about the fun.

2010-08-12T00:10:00.002+08:00

August is all about fun & enjoyment!

1. Friends that came back from far far land

2. Food

3. Fun

4. Trips and Travel

5. Entertainment

6. Laughter

7. Waste Money

8. Do stupid things

9. Late nights

10. My 2 weeks away from the office

August: Reporting in !

2010-08-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

Life is freaking freaking AWESOME !!!

July: That was that changes.

2010-07-18T19:08:00.002+08:00

WOW ~ I didn't realize it has been 4 months I've been away from my blogspot. Somehow I was too caught up with Tumblr and I didn't care about my blogspot anymore. I'll drop by more often. I realize it is much more better for me to just release what's inside my heart here rather than post it in Tumblr.

How shall I start? Ah wells, life have been treating me so great recently. Ever since I stop updating my blogspot, there's been a lot of transition in life that I have to go through. Well, firstly I'm still who I am. That's very much important. But I wasn't who I was before. God has done such a tremendous work on me for the past few months. Surrounding me with such an awesome people! Taught me so many things. He's twisted me 180 degree for the best of me.

I don't know how to let out all the things that had happened for the past few months. But! I don't mind sharing what had happened to me recently! Well, it started off like this. I was browsing through my tumblr one day. And I saw one blog post from this lovely girl. We were like total strangers for each other. I didn't know who she was and she didn't know who I was. After I read her post, something in my heart wants me to let her know how much her post meant to me. It relates to what I've been through in the past few months. So I decided to drop by to her facebook profile and send her a message and tell her what was on my mind after I read her post. Well, her name was Shirley Wong. She's such a wonderful girl! I'm so glad to have the opportunity to become her friend. And ever since we kept in touch through facebook. We decided to have a friendship from far distance because she wasn't from the same state as I am. I strongly believe that I met her by divine appointment from God. Knowing here for the past few weeks has been really great! She brought such a joy into my life. She makes me smile every morning when I open my eyes as well as before I go to sleep at night. She's a person that is very open minded and cool! And I think somehow both of us share quite a lot of things in common. I don't know how to describe but somehow I think we do.

Although we've never seen each other before. After knowing her, I can see that her heart is pure. And she's a very nice person. We also share plenty of our thoughts together. We somehow also encourage each other when we know somehow we need someone to be there for us. Shirley, if you read this post. I just wanna let you know that you're such a WONDERFUL person and gift that was given from above. And I hope this friendship will last forever. You will always stay in my heart and my mind. And I will always keep you in my prayer list.

Well, the second changes that happen to me is the Faith and Journey that I have with my God. It has been improving a lot for the past months. And I'm so happy and glad that God has been really really great to me. I've been bless ever since. And until now, I will never stop even for a second knowing that He is great and He is mighty! So to grow myself even more, I've decided to ask Joshua (My so called camp facilitator) to do bible study with me together with Eden and Jeremy who was in the same group as me while we were at the camp few months ago.

To sum of these up. I just wanna give thanks to Him who is so mighty and I will not let myself fall the temptation of the world but to praise and give Him the honor and worship. Because my God He reigns !

March: I need a miracle

2010-03-24T19:56:00.002+08:00

March: Easter OIKOS Dinner with The Radicals

2010-03-22T22:46:00.003+08:00

Easter Day is coming again. Time flies so fast and I didn't realise it's Easter is coming again. Felt like Easter just past by yesterday. Oh well, as usual we'll a so called "Oikos Easter Dinner" with the cell group members. Hmm... Nick (my cell leader) didn't really expect there would be new people joining us this year. Because we normally expect new people to join and just bring them for dinner with us. And I actually did not expect that I would be bringing someone (consider new) to our cell "lah". Because it's not fun to go only with the usual gangs all the time. So I decided to bring my friend Bernard and he brought his girlfriend there as well. So yea... Had steamboat with them. Talking about steamboat, it was my first time eating steamboat that can actually fry stuff on the side. COOL !~ something new for me. Had a very satisfying dinner with them.

After dinner we went for movie. And just as we left the restaurant, something happened. Apparantly Bernard's car couldn't start cause he forgot to switch his car light off before he left the car. So his car was stucked at the parking lot and the movie is starting very soon. So he decided to abandon his car there and follow my car to the cinema and go back to get his car after we finish the movie. So yeah, we watched a movie call "Day Breaker". Not bad ! It was consider good la. Not much of action but hmm I'll rate it 6 out of 10. The movie ended at 12.15 am something. So we had to drive all the way back to Bern's car to have his car start. And we reached there way before Nicholas. He was suppose to go there and help us. And after 15 minutes there he is and his gang. Bern tried to start his car again but the car didn't behave and did not give any good respond. So me, nick, gavin and kah fei had to push his car in order to have it running. I think we attempted 4 - 5 times of pushing his car only his car can start again. That was my first time pushing a car to get it start in the middle of the night. So we went back home with our saperated ways. Who knew when I was almost home I realise Bernard's house key was in my car. And he had to drive all over to my place again just to get his house key. Pity him. What a night ~ So that's it ! =)

March: Tragedy.

2010-03-21T02:46:00.002+08:00

19th March 2010, there's a dead body found somewhere around California compound that is covered with blood. Deceased is believed to be a 45 year old lorry driver happened to be peeing beside the road whereby a SLK Mercedez car came crashing over him and knock him until he got dizzy and now ended himself up on the road in the middle of nowhere. As you can see his BIG head is bleeding and blood is all over the road. It is just so sad to be the one standing right next to him to cheer him and asking him to be strong and survive. He can make it. I believe he could. End of story. That is all for NCC News for tonight. Goodnight. Sleep tight lorry driver.

March: Nice words ?

2010-03-20T08:29:00.002+08:00

Nice words ??
I don't think I have anymore nice words to say.
I lost all of them.
I think it's because I put it into a jar and throw it to the sea that day.
Therefore, I don't know what to say anymore.

March: Back

2010-03-20T07:48:00.003+08:00

I'll never turn my back on you unless I need to.

March: I'm not an Actor.

2010-03-20T07:15:00.002+08:00

Humans are considered as the great pretender.
They could flip and change from time to time.
They could be real and they can be fake.
They could be someone who you'd think they are.
But they might also bring you down.

I just wanted you to know that...
I'm not an actor I'm not a star...
And I don't even have money and fame for you to spend.
But I'm hoping you'll say.
"That you don't need it anyway."

There are times when you make me mad.
There are moments when you drive me sad.
There are seconds where I see the moment the many times you make me cry.
There's just something you don't understand.
That I want everything to last forever.

There are times when I believe in you.
These moments when I feel like I'm so close to you.
There are times I think that I'm yours.
Thou many times I feel unsure.
I really wanna feel it.

I'll always be around you.
keep an eye on you.
My patience is strong.
And I won't let you run.
Because I know you are the only one.

I've got nothing to lose
But to have your love to win.
I'm at your feet waiting for you.
I've got time and nothing to lose.
I love you

March: When You Say You Love Me.

2010-03-19T17:07:00.002+08:00

When you say you Love me,
The world hold still so still in silent.

Feels like there's no one there but You.

I love the feeling of being Loved by You.

Feb: Four Days In A Row.

2010-03-02T09:10:00.002+08:00

Had a very fun blasting day for the past 4 days.

Hoping for another happy days to come.

Feb: I want someone to Love me for who I am.

2010-02-25T12:38:00.000+08:00

Feb: Question Question Question.

2010-02-19T15:32:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking.

Why must I go through this ?

Why must it stay inside my head ?

What was I thinking ?

Someone please come and wake me up !

Feb: In style for myself

2010-02-18T12:14:00.006+08:00

I don't know why I am starting to love Fedora.

Hmm...

Feb: Confuse Confuse Confuse ~

2010-02-18T06:32:00.002+08:00

I am CONFUSED !!!

...

=.=

Feb: Teach me how to escape.

2010-02-06T07:18:00.002+08:00

I just don't know why I couldn't seems to get this picture out of my head.
Pictures that I don't wanna see.
Pictures that could turn my world upside down.
Pictures that made me hate.
Pictures that made me so irritated with you.
How could this kept on continue going ?
How am I suppose to keep myself happy if this kept on going ?
Why can't you leave me alone ?
Why is all the memories kept playing in my head ?
Damn ! I am starting to hate... Again...
Whatever la~

Feb: Moments

2010-02-04T09:12:00.003+08:00

Hmm... I woke up this morning with a different feeling inside my head which connected to my heart and I couldn't really find the right answer to explain how I felt. Gorshh ~ I think it's that "Moment" again that I had.

Can someone please help ?

Feb: I LOVE STARTBUCKS !

2010-02-01T21:38:00.003+08:00

Feb: Stop by the name of the Law !!

2010-02-01T21:22:00.004+08:00

I just don't understand why people tend to take picture with they freakin' finger Peace Sign. I mean what does it even mean ? It's like the "Asian" thing. It's so famous among the Asians. Not for myself of course. This sign doesn't just apply among the young kids and teens. But I look at the older people does that freakin' pose too when they take picture. Gorshhh ~ That's so emberassing man ! Anyway, that's just what crosses my mind. Blow me with some negative comments if you got offended. Thanks & Bye !

Jan: Can't Help But Wait~

2010-01-29T01:18:00.003+08:00

Lyrics to Can't Help But Wait :

[Intro:]
I can’t help but wait…
Oh I, can’t help but wait…
Check it out

[Verse 1:]
I see you, you wit him-
he ain’t right but you don’t tripYou stand by,
while he lies- then turn right round and forget
I can’t take to see your face, with those tears run down your cheeks
But what can I do- I gotta stay true
Cause deep down I’m still a G

[Bridge:]
And I don’t wanna come between you and your man
Even though I know I treat you better than he can

[Hook:]
Girl I can’t help but wait
Til’ you get that with him, it don’t change
Can’t help but wait
Til’ you see that wit me it ain’t the same
Can’t help but wait
Til’ you, see you, for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can’t help but wait

[Verse 2:]
Listen, it ain’t fresh to just let him call the shots
You’re a queen, you should be, getting all that someone’s got
You should be rockin the latest in purses, bracelets, and watches, your worth
Much more than a occasional I love you
I’m thinking of you

[Bridge]

[Hook]

[Brakedown:]
Get it together- you can do better
Seein’s believing And I see what you need so
I’m gone play my position Let you catch what you’ve been missin
I’m callin out, girl cause I can’t help but wait

[Hook 2x]

[Outro:]
Oh- can’t help but wait, babe
No-no-no-no-no-no
I can’t help but wait
Oh-oh-oh- can’t help but wait
No, no, no

Jan: Funny Night~

2010-01-28T09:27:00.002+08:00

What a fun and random night it has been last night.

Brought Mandy to church to see people practice guitar.

Knowing that she loves to play guitar so much.

It was fun watching them practicing guitar =)

A lot of them has improved their skills. ROCK ON FELLAS !!

Went to meet up my unidentified twins Mr. Bernard and his sweet girlfriend AND also her besties in Sutera Harbour.

I never knew feeding fish at night could be so fun.

Must do it again.

Well, woke on the wrong side of the bed again.

Which means my neck is aching ONCE AGAIN.

But it was worth it !

I gotta sleep early this coming days.

My eyes is soon turning into fish eyes already.

Mandy also ! Always sleep around 3 in morning. THAT'S EARLY !! NoooT !

Anyways, I'll put in more words again soon ~

Jan: I love my Google Chrome !

2010-01-27T15:59:00.001+08:00

I love the wallpaper for my google chrome!

so KEWL~

hahah ~

Jan: So what ?

2010-01-26T19:17:00.002+08:00

I post whatever I want.

I upload whatever pictures that has my face on it.

Why do you care !

Come in and invade ?

Back off ~

Jan: WTH

2010-01-26T18:44:00.001+08:00

Being CURIOUS is NOT FUN.

Jan: Some random shoot #5

2010-01-26T17:42:00.002+08:00

Come visit me at Help Desk.

Hahaha ~~

Jan: Some random shoot #4

2010-01-26T17:15:00.002+08:00

Jan: Ouch~

2010-01-26T14:36:00.001+08:00

Slept on the wrong side of the bed last night.

And guess what happened ?

NECK ACHE !

Sigh ~

It's hard to drive and do my work.

I need a massage now !

Mandy, you OWE me a MASSAGE !

Jan: Try - Asher Book. (I wanna try too!)

2010-01-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

Jan: Fun Day~

2010-01-25T17:58:00.002+08:00

Hmm... I had a great fun time with Mandy today.

Cruising around the ports and tried BBQ coconut.

Didn't taste as good as how I've expected it would be.

Looking forward for a brand new day !

Smile is the way to cheer yourself and other people up !

Jan: Some random shoot #3

2010-01-25T10:28:00.005+08:00

Cutting trees anyone ?

Nice spelling aye ?

Jan: Some random shoot #2

2010-01-25T01:08:00.002+08:00

Found this innocent young criminal on the floor. Dead.

It was outside my friend's room. I bet this lizard was there for few days ady.

It is actually very small but I took the pic so close til it looked kinda BIG.

Jan: Some random shoot #1

2010-01-25T00:55:00.002+08:00

I was servaying some books in Times and I saw this book.

Love the graphic design of it and the words.

Didn't really get to see the content of the book yet.

Perhaps one day. When I wanna buy it =)

Jan: Hmm...

2010-01-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

What are we suppose do? After all the we've been through.
When everything that felt so right is wrong.
Now that the LOVE is GONE.

There is nothing left to prove. Use to deny the simple truth.
Can't find reason to keep holding on.
Now that the LOVE is GONE.

That was taken from the song "Love is gone - David Guetta"

That lyrics meant a lot to me. =)

Jan: Tired

2010-01-24T08:32:00.001+08:00

After 3 loong hard day of working.

I am indeed very tired =\

Not only working but I am also tired of something else.

Something else that kept bothering me for few days already.

Hmm...

God, stay around okay ? I need You~

Jan: Self Encouragement

2010-01-23T01:41:00.002+08:00

I am NOT a FAILURE;

There's NO ROOM for a LOSER.

You wanna accuse me for being a LOSER in life?

I bet you were the ONE WHO IS LOSING because you never thought of pushing yourself up to the peak !

Jan: Wow.

2010-01-22T12:44:00.002+08:00

Here I am alone in the office. Can't seems to think of anything to do since everyone is out for their lunch break. I was planning to go out for lunch myself but who knew everyone made their first step out of the office before I even knew. Ain't that just great ?

To be honest. I am starting to adopt this new way of life that I am living right now. Although it doesn't pleased me or make me happy. Well at least I can try to act that I am enjoying it. It's just the beginning of a new me. Some of you may not like it. Perhaps some of you may. I don't know. That depends on the perspective of looking at things that I am doing.

My life journey has brought me into a new level. I am just glad that I still put You inside my heart. Afraid one day if I were to let you go my whole world will come crashing and stumble myself down into a place where I don't wish to be at.

Hmm... What am I talking about ? Damn~ I don't have any idea. Anyway, that's about it !

2010, I'm gonna prove you that I am strong and I can get through this. Just continue to bring your challenges to me. I am ready !

Jan: Please visit

2010-01-22T09:36:00.001+08:00

For those of you who's interested with Graphic and would like to browse for nice website to get inspired.

Please feel free to visit

Abduzeedo

Jan: Hugs

2010-01-22T08:21:00.003+08:00

all I need is just a warmth HUGS

and I know I will never be able to get one from You =\

Jan: Friends

2010-01-22T08:19:00.001+08:00

I Don't Believe in "HI & BYE" Friendships.

2010: Hello New Year (Delayed)

2010-01-22T08:00:00.002+08:00

Hello again my Bloggie friend. It's has been a long long while since I last log in to you. =) Hmm... I don't think I received any regular reader already since I have been putting myself away from my blog. And so much has changed since the last time I updated my blog. Oh man ! Time flies so quick... Wish it could be a little bit slower than the usual speed.

Well, it's time to talk about 2010.

Funny Funny year ! Year that is filled with so much challenges. And I wonder why after so many years God chooses this year for me. Hmm... Didn't really had a happy beginning for me this year thou. There's too much things to cope with. Some of you might understand it and some of you won't. Well, I'll just continue updating it more often so that you might understand what I am trying to say.

All I have to say is that I don't wanna be where I am not. I need to move out of my comfort zone ! It's time to leave this sit that I am sitting at and go finding something that is worth living for. Hmm... About love. Well love didn't wanna be friends with me too this year. So I am gonna say bye bye to you too "Love". Hope to see you again soon !

Damn~ What is this exactly I wanna say ?! Hmm... I'll just let it slip. Can't think of anything further to type. Will be coming back for part 2.

If this is You reading. Please respond yea?

Nov: My Stories

2009-11-05T20:15:00.001+08:00

Now comes the time when I don't feel like staying at home and being all alone in my room. It's not that I don't like being at home. But sometimes I just feel that I wanna give myself a time to be let lose... I wanna stay away from my comfort zone... I was in my comfort zone too long... I just wanna walk forward and not to thinking about what happened behind me and the desicion that has been made. It's time to forward... Life is full with joy & happiness up ahead of me. I will not let myself fall at this moment of time... It's time to buckle up and drive to a foreign land... Try out something new... Feel the freshness of the breeze... I know somehow life has plenty of amazing surprises... And it is just waiting for me to seek for it... I will not care what people may think about what I typed in this note... Because it isn't about anyone... It is never meant to be about anyone... And if anyone felt impacted by this simple note... Well then keep it to yourself... If you somehow think it helps you... Let it be your motivation... Anyone that doesn't appreciate it then let it be...

I will show other people that I am weak... I will never show other people that I am fragile... I will never let anyone see that I am not good enough to present myself in front of other people... Somehow people might break our spirit in achieving our dreams... For us who has strong faith and desire, continue pursuing the dreams that you have waited for long... You might not know where you might and up... But all of this needs strong determination... Without any determination we can easily fall into a trap of failure... But failure doesn't mean that we fail forever... It is just another learning process that we need to go through in order to succeed... Many people will not believe what we can do and the potential that we've got... But never mind guys, as long as you believe in yourself... You are already a winner...

Yes, I know some of you might be curious about the reason why I am typing all this out... All I have to say to you is I am standing to myself... Giving this statement to tell you that I will do whatever it takes to achieve what I want... It's time I rise again and walk towards my victory... Someday I may fall again because those kind of thing will happen without any expectation... Anyhow I am not scared ! Because there's one person that will help me go through all this... That person will GOD Himself... He knows what is inside our hearts... He knows everything that we have in our mind... And He Himself will make the decision on what is right or wrong towards the things that we have in our mind... I realize that sometimes we blame God for not answering our prayers... No matter how hard we prayed nothing will eventually happen... And I lay on bed and ponder... Why is do we call God a "MIGHTY GOD" and yet He cannot help us in midst of our sad time ? And the answer that I get is that sometimes what "WE WANT" is not right in front of His eyes... So there's no other reason that God doesn't listen to us... Even if the things that "WE WANT" may be a good thing... Somehow some things need to happen depending on the season...

Let me just share one simple testimony of my life with you... I am not forcing you to continue reading this... But if you are curious you can proceed... I don't mind... I rather you read people's testimony and not doing other worthless things and learn how develop your own testimony and share it to other people... It started out like this... I was almost on the midst of giving up the things that I do everyday... Well, not complaining but if you know it just keep to yourself... But somehow I feel that God doesn't want me to give up... He still kept me to where I was and continue pouring His blessings towards... I believe He even send His angels to surround me... I am thankful enough to God... But somehow I did not really notice and tend to take things for granted... Still being stubborn on putting my own mindset and do things my own ways without even thinking about God... It's not that I have forsaken Him or what... I still put God first everyday in my mind... It's just how I am in life... I take things for granted towards many things that is in front of me... I did not do it on purpose but it just happen... I think it's because I got use to it since I was young ? I grew up as the only child in my life... Life wasn't as easy as many of you think... Being the only child in one family isn't easy when you are not living with your mom & dad... You will feel the loneliness inside your heart because there is no one who really understands you and what you are thinking... And I have limited boundaries on being around my friends when I was very young... Not to say I have a huge pressure on high expectation from my family members... Everything is that easy... But I was very lucky to have grown up in one very loving and caring united family... And I thank God for that... And you too should appreciate your family members... They sometimes get you up to your limited levels... But hey! They still give you shelter right ?! So you know what to do...

Oh yea, I had this very very weird dreams for the past three nights... It was very scary... The dream that I dreamt of was very brutal... If it's not about me bleeding to death then it will be me watching other people bleeding to death... Gosh ~ And everything that happens in that dream was so real... It kept on going for the last three nights... I don't feel the fear of closing my eyes... I just feel the fear when I start to dream about it... The first dream that I had was about me stuck in this very very dark place in which you can't even see anything in front of you... The situation was like when you close your lights in your room and you can't even see a thing... Of course you feel scared right ? Scared you might trip when you step on something... But my dream was different... Even though it was dark, I still can see shadows walking around me... And the shadows that I saw has certain emotion like sad, depress, frustrated, regret, and so on... I felt very scared and sad at that very moment as I saw them... And then suddenly there is this bold old man come to me... He looked like a Chinese old man with his short pants, blue Adidas jacket and a pair of flip flops... Cool aye ? He approached to me and said: "Why are you here? Do you know that people like you doesn't suppose to be here? This a place where you come and you can never go back. All the people here regret that they've came here. Take a look around and tell me what do you see. Everyone here had done bad things in their past. Since you are here. How do you think you can go back?" And then I tried to run... Run as far as I could... But it was dark, and no matter how far I run and shout I will still go back to where I was... I still can recall the image inside my head right now... It is very clear to me indeed...

Now let me share to you the second dream that I had... My dreams will be a little bit scary to you but I will try to make it not that scary so that you can continue reading it through... In this second dream that I had... I was back in my hometown spending time with my family members... Everything was so good and fine... And then suddenly there is a news saying that the Japanese will have their 3rd attack in my hometown... And then I got scared... I was thinking and asking myself what should I do in order to save myself from this scary moment... And then one of my family members said the Japanese is almost reach to our home and they are trying to surround our house... There won't be another way to escape... All of us will surely die... And then I don't know why I told my grandma that I wanna suicide and die before I get brutally killed by the Japanese soldier... And at the very moment I looked out of a small hole from the door... I saw people dying being shot by the soldiers... My heart was pumping even more faster than I usually do... Gosh ~ And then I decided to take one grenade and swallow it... What a bad way to die... And then I was dead because the grenade exploded inside my body... I saw my body shattered on the floor... My spirit was floating around the house watching my grandma cried watching me dead... And I was floating to the back of the house my granpa's sister saw me... I was stunned when I saw her talking to me... I was thinking to myself... I am dead... How can you see me ? And then she say to me "Why did you have to go first from this family?" I see tears coming down from my spirit... Yet I felt curious... How can tears came down from a spirit... And the whole floor was filled with tears... And then I woke up... Funny dreams...

Actually there are another 2 dreams I wish to share with you... But that one I rather tell you myself... That would be more interesting... So for those you sees just asked me about it if you wanna know... Throughout all the dreams that I had... I feel like there is a sign from God... A sign that I should share this to the people around me... Especially the youths who are far away from God in their lives... But anyhow, the MOST IMPORTANT thing now is to pray to God every now and then... Don't give up in whatever things that you are doing... Just make sure it is right... God is always with us and watching over us... Thank you for sparing your time just to read this note =)

Sincerely

Banjo

Oct: Funny and Adorable Picture !

2009-10-06T16:23:00.002+08:00

Oct: Cool ~

2009-10-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

Oct: Fun at Yien's house

2009-10-03T10:04:00.006+08:00

Uhm...
Phy was suppose to teach yet Maths but end up we all played...
Naughty !!

Sept: Funny Miley Video

2009-09-28T09:41:00.000+08:00

Cars Cars Cars I Love Cars

2009-09-25T01:15:00.004+08:00

Was browsing through the net recently looking at some nice car pictures...
"CARS okay?? NOT the models"
I was wondering, people keep designing and creating new design of cars and some of them are like overly expensive and yet some people can afford to get it.
I wonder what kinda job do they do that can let them have the opportunities to drive such an expensive car.

Like this:

I wanna drive on one of those baby too!
Craving Craving Craving...
Drooling Drooling Drooling...
Gonna work hard to earn them man !
=)

Sept: She had a great fun time =)

2009-09-11T09:24:00.003+08:00

Cute little Phy Phy went for her ex tuition mate gathering...
She had fun... I was around BUT not around her tho...
She had fun with her friend and I waited for while talking to a friend...
It's really a JOYFUL moment to see her smiling whole night...
After the gathering we went to play pool as well...
She's so adorable with the pool stick...
Hitting the ball softly...
hahaha !
Might be going for another pool session again soon !
=)

Sept: Uhm, Why??

2009-09-10T10:35:00.003+08:00

Well, as you all can see. It's a smiley picture that turns into a sad face. *Obviously* Duh~
Actually what I am trying to say is that I feel something that is not right inside me. It's making me feel like something is swallowing my soul deep inside.
I think I need help... I really don't have the right answer for my sorrow...
Anyone ?

Sept: Calendar

2009-09-02T10:34:00.001+08:00

Finally! I've designed a calendar for myself to put on my wallpaper while I'm working.

For those of you who wants one, don't be hesitate to copy it or save it into your computer.

Enjoy !

August: Your Gifts

2009-08-30T00:36:00.003+08:00

Well, I sudden had a thought.
Why not we talk about something that involves things we go through in life?

My question for this month is:

"What kind of GIFT do you think God has given you? And what are you going to do about it?"

If you have any comments about it just drop it into my chat box and we'll disscuss about it!
Thanks!

August: It's almost the end of August

2009-08-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

It's almost the end of August...
I haven't really achieve the "Ultimate Fun" yet...
Talking about the word "Ultimate", I went to watch movie in church with the youth group which is called "The Ultimate Gifts".
Have you guys every heard about that movie before? I guess it's an old movie but it's just that I haven't watch it before.
It was quite an interesting movie tho I missed 10 minutes of the front part.
I really love the story line of the movie. It talks about how money can change us in 2 ways which is the pros and the cons.
You should know it better yourself.
For those who haven't watch this movie yet.
Well, go get the original DVD ! Must !!

Adios !

August: Phy's Baking Day With Friends

2009-08-28T10:38:00.009+08:00

BAKING TIME!!

Kiwi Torte !

YUMMY YUM YUM !

August: Fun Week.

2009-08-28T09:39:00.011+08:00

Greetings fellow human from earth!

Time flew very fast yea ?

It went pass by without us noticing.

Cheeky time !

I wanna build a time machine just to stop time even for ten minutes is enough.

Uhm, let me just start my post by saying WE (me + phy & the bunch of youths) had a BLASTING monday. And it was such a great start for the 1st day of the week.

We had BBQ by the beach ! And it's fun yea I know ! It was my first time team up with Phy Phy and Yien Yien to organize this BBQ party. We've been planning it for like only few days... It was such a great experience to organize something like this... Well, thou I might be the organizer but most part is done by my wonderful assistants, that is Phy Phy and Yien.. They've been great by helping me with some of the things that I need to do. THANKS TO YOU BOTH !

Well, the MOST EXCITED one is also non the less PHY PHY ! She's just so cute and funny... She couldn't wait to get all things ready... I remember when we all went to Servay Supermarket to get all the things for the BBQ... Phy keep walking here and there with her tiny little notebook checking the list to buy all the things.

I kinda lazy typing ady...

You guys just look at the picture it will tell you all the stories...

I plan and she writes it down...

I was choosing for my fav lamb actually...

And for Yien... Well, as you can see all she does is taking pictures.

The warrior that saves His Princess the one by His side...

Yien ! What are you so excited about ??

The found a small little shark! No wonder the movie "Shark Tale" couldn't reach one of their actor...

There HE IS !

(DEAD)

I don't understand what is so amaze about dead shark??

And Joanne still want a close up look of the shark !

See ! There goes another one !

Me and Princess Phy!

Small Nick and I

After being so amazed... They dump poor Sharky on the sand...

Phy & Emery

Phy & Joanne

Debbo & Phyllo

Cute little angels !

The middle two is the current "HUNKS" and the other two at the side is "SOON TO BE"

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Where the fun begins!

Cheers Christine !

Experimenting District 9

WOW ! Muscle man !

HAHAHAHAHA

Yien, with her Olympic style running by the beach !

(New Edition of BAY WATCH)

Yien, don't show your butt le...

Speedy Gonzales !!!

Run~ Run like the bird??

Now you know it's cold aye ?

That is where Ker Soon buried Mr. Sharky

NOW YOU SEE!!

NOW YOU DON'T !!!

HAHAHAHAHA! Brandon, that is not the way to impress lady

Starving ??!

Yum Yum ??

Chef of the day...

A-B-R-A-H-A-M

That's about it !

August: My #100 Post

2009-08-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

Nothing much...
Just my 100 posts...

August: Cats = Love

2009-08-17T21:47:00.005+08:00

Don't mess with this CAT!

She BITES !

Just Kidding...

Her name is "MEW"

I know I know !

That name is so cute and so cat's name !

I love Mew..

She has got BLUE EYES...

Woah... So cool man !

Serious...

She's also very friendly...

She also listen when you call her...

Just shout "MEW!" and she'll turn her head on you and go towards you...

Mew Mew !

We Love You!

August: ALMOST From Same to Similar

2009-08-17T21:45:00.003+08:00

My car's plate number SAA6445X but this one SAA6225X

Almost la!

Ha ha ha ha

August: Fri & Sun

2009-08-17T21:35:00.003+08:00

So Random !

Bomb Alaska ! Have you ever try this ?

Never ??! Well, go to five sails and you know how it taste like...

So tempting man !

Gosh ! I can't forget the taste of this yummy thing !

Nick, with her "Sexy Pose" konon at upper star .

ha ha ha..

Had a lil talk with him till late night...

He's my cell leader by the way

This post is so random and sudden...

Funny man !

What am I thinking ??

August: Happy Birthday to Our friend.

2009-08-17T21:23:00.006+08:00

It was our funny little friend's birthday last saturday...

Joanne Wong Pei Chee is the name.

Well, she had her blast moment that night...

She didn't went for youth but Me, Phy, Yien & Joerel went to pick her up for supper with the rest of the youths...

She was surprise when all of us sang Happy Birthday song for her...

There's a lil bit of the moment of her time

Yien with her so-called "PEACE SIGN"

I kept asking Yien to look at the camera but she still refuses!

sigh~

No more breathe man!

Phy! you're not suppose to sleep when I'm snapping pictures !

Phy & Joanne was busy don't know doing what ???

Oh no !

Tell me it ISN'T SO !!!

3 small size girls !!!!!

Ha ha ha ha !!

Look at Yien...

Keep complaining there !

And she still think this picture is COOL...

YIEN ???!!!

SMALL EYES COMPETITION ??!!!

Nice caption !!

Well, that's about it !

Next year might blog for another story i guess...

Ha ha ha ha

August: Meet My New Friends

2009-08-15T11:47:00.009+08:00

These are my new friends from Kenmore Baptist Church in Brisbane, Australia.

From the left is ME, Lee & Mei Li

They are such a cool person!

Got to know them when they came to KK for visit and mission trip...

Went to the airport to pick them up too =)

Looking forward to see them both in the future

August: When It Comes To Love

2009-08-14T09:34:00.005+08:00

Being in Love doesn't mean seeing or thinking of each other all the time,

Being in Love sometimes is about the feeling of contented,

Feeling the peace inside out heart when we're doing something.

With knowing there is someone whose there for you at all time!

August:Emo Post

2009-08-12T12:26:00.002+08:00

Feels like I've been HIT by a train!

It hurts real bad! Really Really BAD !

Thought that I can stop the train from coming but I don't have the strength to do so.

SIGH~

August: Question Question Question.

2009-08-12T09:24:00.002+08:00

Oh Lord, I've been having this question in my mind since this morning when I read something.

"Who are we to know who we are?"

When expectation comes far from above, how are we suppose to face it when we did not fulfill the things that other people wants us to be/to do?

How is it possible to find out the real THING in our heart?

Where do I start?

How can I change?

Do I need to act out and become someone whom I am not really are?

Oh God, If only you can hear the voice inside my heart.

I'm facing a huge hurricane storm in my life too !

How can I go through it?

I've lost my confidence, how can I gain it back?

How can I take back the things that I've said and done before?

Is it enough for the sake of repenting?

Do YOU think that will make any changes at all?

GOSH!

Things are getting out of control.

I don't know who I should put my trust on.

I'm not a GOOD guy.

Don't try to be soft to me.

I don't even know if it is Worth to live for being such a Bad Person.

I'm not some so called IDEAL PERSON that everyone thinks I am.

Yeah, I know I'm wrong.

If you think you're right and perfect that PROVE ME WRONG.

Well Got, I never know Lack of Love would really turn your world upside down.

Show me the TRUE LOVE Lord God.

I Can't Stand with my Both Feet Much Longer =(

August: Song of the week for ME

2009-08-08T14:54:00.000+08:00

You GAVE ME SOMETHING oh Lord !

August: Words from the Daddy up there !

2009-08-08T14:16:00.002+08:00

Well, basically what I wanna blog about now is about young generation kids who is starting to expose themselves into the World. As a human being we are easily influence by materials and the medias. Life is just as complicated as that. Sometimes we tend to try something new which we know it's not really good for us but somehow we still find our way through just to have a feel of how is it like to do "it". For instant, some of us know that smoking is not good for health. BUT, I still see many young people nowadays has the stick on their Finger. I really cannot understand what sorts of benefit does it bring to our health if we smoke? Does people smoke and think that they are acting very "COOL"? NO I DON'T THINK SO!~

I'm here also to say few words to all the youths who is going overseas to pursue their studies. Even though I've never experience being send out of my own country. But I've seen people changed after they came back from their study. There is always a PROS and CONS in something. So, I believe many youths also realize it. For my opinion, youths who are exploring into the world unknown MUST FIRST SEEK FOR A CHURCH TO WORSHIP THE LORD AND NOT LEAST MIX WITH GOOD CHRISTIAN FRIENDS. For mostly Asians like us "malaysian", we hang out with boundaries and limits. And we are also conscious with the things around us. But things are way more different once we start exploring things that is not that "Asian" to us. We may learn things that we've never know exist before. We may see things that we've never seen before. Whatever it is, guys you all MUST ALWAYS PUT GOD FIRST !

I'm not criticizing those who's going overseas to study. But I am concern that things will change between the friendship and the bonding between one and another. You may learn to speak how people in other country speak. And those who remains in Asia will always speak the same thing. People might not understand what You say and You might not understand what people may say. So just remember, always remain the same and know who you truly are. God is always there watching out for us. Thanks for reading.

-B

August: Where is the fun ??

2009-08-05T09:38:00.001+08:00

Where is the FUN when you need one ?